Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Latest struggle: Feeling ALONE

Have you ever felt ALONE? Surrounded by countless people, yet feel so alone? 
This past weekend held emotional highs and lows. And for some reason, I still wasn't over it by Monday..
Here is what I realized, and feel I have to share. Not only to overcome this feeling of loneliness, but to help others struggling with the same thing.
EVERYONE has their own demons they have to constantly battle. Nobody's struggles are "better" or "worse" than anyone else's.
And we all likely feel ALONE at some time or another. We feel that there is NO ONE who gets us or understands us completely. I feel I have passions, struggles, heartaches, worries, likes and dislikes, that no one can fully understand.
I was driving today and a thought came to me. The part in Harry Potter (yes, I am a HUGE HP fan) when Harry was feeling so alone and felt that he had to fight Voldemort all on his own. And Luna Lovegood told Harry that THAT is exactly how "you-know-who" wants him to feel.
Because the ONLY way you-know-who can defeat Harry is if he feels alone and helpless.
Harry Potter: Thanks. Seems you're about the only ones that do. 
Luna Lovegood: I don't think that's true. But I suppose that's how he wants you to feel. 
Harry Potter: What do you mean? 
Luna Lovegood: Well if I were You-Know-Who, I'd want you to feel cut off from everyone else. Because if it's just you alone you're not as much of a threat. 
SOOOO it hit me again. THAT is how Satan wants us to feel. He wants us to feel ALONE because when we are alone, he is able to have more control over us, our thoughts, and our actions (or lack thereof), and we feel defeated and helpless. Satan is HAPPY when I feel alone, sad, distressed and not productive. He wants me to feel like I have NO ONE because then I get down on myself and have an emotional pity party and don't feel like doing anything. 

When I feel lonely and alone, I am less in tune with the Spirit and I am unproductive and negative toward myself. I feel defeated. Just like Satan wants me to feel. Because that way, I am not as much of a threat.

It seems I need reminded of all the love and support I have.
  My Heavenly Father Jesus Christ  My FAMILY  My FRIENDS  My fellow coaches  My church and countless other acquaintances that are cheering me on.
THEY want me to succeed and that means more than anything. 
THIS is what gives me HOPE again.
Because with SUPPORT and LOVE, we are STRONG and cannot be defeated!


My husband could tell I was distressed and an emotional wreck, so he brought me home my favorite flowers <3

How can I  I am alone, with so many people that love and support me?

It is tough to see the positive in a situation where you feel like all hope is gone, but I am here to tell you that hope is never completely diminished. It may be lost, but it IS POSSIBLE to find it again.

Maybe you don't have someone bringing you flowers, but you have one person who is always on your side cheering you on. 

This video HERE  is an AMAZING and POWERFUL testament to me. I felt the SPIRIT so strongly telling me of it's truthfulness! Watch the entire thing or start at 15:30 and hear the BEST part!!!!! YOU ARE LOVED

Never forget that.

"Whether you are 8 or 108 there is one thing that I hope you truly understand and know:
YOU ARE LOVED. You are dear to your Heavenly parents. The infinite and eternal creator of light and life KNOWS YOU. He is mindful of you. Yes, God loves you this very day and always. He is not waiting to love you until you have overcome your weaknesses and bad habits. He loves you today with the full understanding of your struggles. He is aware that you reach up to him in heartfelt and hopeful prayer. He knows of the times you have held onto the fading light, and believed.
Even in the midst of growing darkness, He knows of your sufferings. He knows of your remorse for the times you feel you have fallen short or failed and still he loves you. And God knows of your successes, though they may seem small to you. He acknowledges and cherishes each one of them. He loves you for extending yourself to others. He loves you for reaching out and helping others bear their heavy burdens, even when you are struggling with your own. He knows everything about you.
He sees you clearly. He knows you as you REALLY are. And He loves you today and always.

Do you suppose it matters to our Heavenly Father whether your makeup, clothes, hair and nails are perfect? Do you think your value to him changes based on how many followers you have on IG or Pinterest? Do you think he wants you to worry or get depressed if someone unfriends you or unfollows you on facebook or twitter? Do you think outward attractiveness, your dress size or popularity make the slightest difference in your worth to the one who created the universe? 
He loves you for not only who you are this very day, but also for the person of glory and light, you have the potential and the desire to become. More than you could ever imagine, he wants you to achieve your destiny, to return to your heavenly home in honor."

---Dieter F Uchtdorf
General Women's Broadcast October 2014



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